A Poem About Myself

Written June 14th, 2020

Growing up, I never fit in well

I was a girl with boy hair, boy clothes, boy actions

I was a boy with girl toys, girl writing, girl voice

I realize now, I've never been a "one or the other" kind of person


I don't know how much I really believe in astrology,

but my signs say a lot about me;

Born on the cusp of two opposing signs,

Masculine and Feminine,

Fire and Earth,

A contradiction since birth;

Red diamonds and pink emeralds


I am the shadow of the volcano,

I am the fire and the earth that it burns,

I am the lava which flows from the peaks,

raging and roaring until I've crushed and consumed all;

and yet, I am the light of the sun,

the fertile earth born fron the chaos,

the ashes that feed the flowers,

the sprouts that grow with hope of a better future


I am both, all at once

and it makes no sense


People tell me to just pick one

"You can't be two at once!"

And yet, I am


I am the bull as much as I am the ram

I am the boy as much as I am the girl

I am two things seen as opposing,

but I do not oppose myself

I melt together perfectly without worry of what it may look like from the outside


I don't make sense

and I don't have to


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