Is there such a thing as silent screaming? I've been asking myself over and over if I'm really allowed to feel this way. All I've wanted to do these past two months is cry, or scream, or anything. But am I justified in feeling such a way?
This is something I've learned as a jew. Everyone around me secretly hates me. Everyone assumes I am evil. I am vermin. I am nothing. Jewish blood has been spilled, and I thought I could just power through it because it's always being spilled. But things are getting worse for us. Much worse. People I know, people I trusted, are acting like I don't exist. Assuming the worst in me, assuming the worst in my people.
I don't know what to do.